Saying Good-bye

 

It is 4 a.m. February 16. Bradley flies to America today

I know you have all done  it – said good-bye to someone very dear.  Part of your heart is torn out and just goes along with them, leaving an empty hole in its place!  Nothing can fill the emptiness from that moment on.  There are phone calls, emails and letters, but these cause the memories to be even clearer, therefore your loss seems more intense in the present.  A Mother’s heart is bonded in a special love for her children.  It is a love stronger than death.   She would give her life for them if this would save them from evil or harm.  I would have gladly given my life the instant that truck hit Bradley if it would leave him uninjured and whole.  Durring the pain filled days that followed I so longed to take his place and let him go free from his suffering. Indeed, these things we feel for our children is a heaven-born Christlike love, enabling the heart to love deeper than words could describe because we cannot measure divine love.  In Christ we are capable of more and yet more love, therefore along with more love comes more intense pain to the heart when separation, or any problem occurs with our children.   It is a huge risk to own this much love because it opens up a vulnerability in your soul for bad intense pain!  Is it worth it – this kind of love?

As I ponder these thoughts I try to grasp a small ray of light from heaven.  Jesus, the Creator made us by hand.  He thought of each cell and its function, put it in place and activated it in His own image.  Before that He already knew that we would separate ourselves from Him and plunge ourselves into intense pain, remorse and death.   Yet without hesitation He completed His work of creation along with a plan to save us from the sin we would plunge into.  Alone without love and attention from us, He hung on the cross, His heart broken with the anguish of separation that sin causes.  His Divine, spotless heart of love suffered more  pain than it is possible for us humans to even comprehend.  The heartache and torture and death He suffered was the second death, and he knew the pain of it before the world began, but He could not bare to watch his children suffer the results of their heinous sins.  He took it so we could go free.  He took it that we could be spared the pain.  He took it that we can bare up under separation and heartaches.  He took it that we may at last never be parted again!  He was broken so that He could make us whole.

He said it was worth it!  For you and for me.

Wow!  How very small and insignifigant in comparison am I!   Now I am filled with joy. By trusting His Word and taking His hand through the pain of separation, I can  make it worth it for Him!   He has enabled me to “Take hold of His strenth that He may make peace with me.”  Isaiah 27:5  

And don’t I have a lot to be thankful for?  Bradley continues to improve from his injuries  every day.  It has been almost 2 full months since the accident.  He has now thrown off the crutches and can walk carefully on that bad leg and use his arm carefully.  He is working towards his goal of spiritual and medical training so he can return to Thailand to work and teach.

Oh Lord thank you, I love You so much!

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